It's been a while...

Since I blogged. So here I am.

A lot happened today. I talked to my birthfather for the first time in my life...it seems unreal...I'm not sure what to think about it, and now I'm pretty confused....as usual.

Seems like all the little teenagers at work hate me for one reason or another. I don't really care :) Dem bitchez iz just jealoussss :)

I can't help it if I'm so f*cking gorgeous that everyone wants me..or wants to BE me.........sorry hunny. ;)

Things coming together

We'll be moving into our lovely 2 BR extra large apartment a week from today. I can't WAIT! Packing is fun too, because it's allowing me to go through things and determine what we need and what we don't anymore. I've already packed up some of our extra dishes to help save time and space. I can't wait to get the uhaul and load that up.

We got a new couch last night, and also a twin bed for what is going to be our guest bedroom/my sewing room. Yay! Now I just need to get some sheets for it, and we're set. :)

I can't wait to start at Granite City to start making some instant cash, but I need to coordinate a schedule between them and Maurices first. Should be a majorly interesting experience.

Well..I got the job.

That's right. I got the job at Granite City. So hopefully the $$$$ starts rolling in and I can get things paid off and get a loan for a CAR. :( That's what I really need right now is a car.

Today

I picked up a couple night stands that I got off of Craigslist. They're in pretty good condition. So I am pleased :)

Moving in 9 days!! AHHH!! lol. Scary thoughts. Can't believe we'll be all moved into our new apartments.

Stuff

Well. Things have been happening, as usual. Nothing too extreme, by any means.

I had a missed call when I got off work today, and of course, it was Milford, and, of course, he was less than pleased. I don't know that I really want involved in all this drama. Please, leave me out of it. :)

Moving soon! October 20th! That means like...11 days!! OMG!!! Crazy. We'll be renting a Uhaul on the 19th I believe. Hopefully it's not too expensive...I've got to drive to Newton with it to pick up our new bed. (Which is a queen) Sara is coming over to help us move too :D Yay for an eeexxxtra largggge 2 br apartment. :)

Also: I got a call from Granite City today, and I have an interview tomorrow morning at ten. Please pray for me...if you pray...I need this job...I need this money, not only for myself, but for my friends, who have done so much for me, I need to do something for them as well. I love my job as a Manager at Maurices, and am NOT quitting at all. I just need the extra cash to pay off my medical bills....please god...if you can hear me...lol. ;)

Changeling is on. I'm quite fond of this movie. Beautifully put together!

Tonight is the night

I had a lot of fun at Rob and Misty's today. Misty has unofficially adopted me and claimed me as her own lol. I don't mind. She's a very nice lady, and seems to have nothing but unconditional love for me. :)

Yay for a freaaaakin' 8-hour shift tomorrow...it was nice having all this time off...which I somehow managed to NOT find time for ANY packing...so now...I'm back at square one...wishing I had more time...but now I'm being scheduled at every possible hour...so best of luck with that, Teresa.

Kale says farmville lied about the watermelon. Lol. I haven't played it today, I'm kind of losing interest in it...which I suppose is a good thing...

I'll be honest, I'm not excited to work tomorrow. Hopefully it goes by quickly, but I've noticed that my coworker doesn't touch the fitting room bars...she always seems to be "finding" something else to do...Last I worked with her, for four hours, she hadn't touched the bar all day...yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...might-say-something-about-that.....

I need to go to bed, but I need to eat first. Kale is making dinner. Alfredo! Yum...lack of sleep? blugh.

=(

I kinda miss having a guinea pig as a pet. When I worked at Petsmart, I ended up with like, 7 of them because people would drop them off when they didn't want them anymore. *How sad*

When I went to college, I found new homes for the guinea pigs...and now I kinda miss having one. :/ Sadsauce.

Cha.

I absolutely NEED to spend time packing today. No excuses. We're moving in 14 days.... AHHH!! I'm excited though...who wouldn't want to trade a sherman hill 1 br for an XL 2 BR in clive??? o.0

I have a guy coming to look at the apartment tonight at 7. Yayness.

Wow

I listed my Silent Hill: Homecoming for PS3 game on Ebay...I didn't think it would be worth that much...so I started the listing at .01 cent with $3.00 for shipping. (Since that is what shipping usually costs for a DVD format)

Well, now it's up to $20.50. Putting me at a grand total of $23.50. Yay. $3.50 of that will probably go for shipping, and the rest HAS to go in my gas tank, or I'm screwed.

Bruises everywhere

A lot can happen in a seemingly normal day.

You can get a phone call from your sister, who chatters excitedly about getting a new kitten.

You can discover several bruises on your legs...and wonder where they came from...because you have no recollection of ever creating them.

You can also learn that some things, may in fact, never change.

You can accept this, and try to move on...and you can pout about it.

I will/may pout about it for a while....while I try to convince myself that I'll be fine...

I'll keep chanting in my head the words that Kale told me: "Why would you want to talk to somebody who doesn't want to talk to you?"

The answer? I don't know. Broken heart...old love....family ties. The innocence of my pain is overbearing...and I can't help but wonder if I'm being naive...and if I should simply : "let go," as they tell me to.

But what sort of "let go?" The kind where you stop thinking about it for a couple months until the other person comes around? Or the kind where I accept all circumstances, and when said person decides to come around...I forget my connection with them, and continue to move on...just as they had done with me?

Pain.

Ouch.

My god

I have come to realize that almost everyone I went to high school with, now has children. My first friend when I moved to Des Moines, Janelle, has two children and is married. Another girl I went to elementary school with also has two children. Zach and Ali had Kiona, Nyle and Emily have Kam....And I won't list off the other people I've seen on Facebook with children....it's starting to make me wonder if I'm the one who hasn't grown up as fast as the rest of them....I have a job....I have a place...and a car....but no kids...and unmarried. Granted, I'll BE married in less than 8 months...but why does it seem like the "thing" is to be having kids at this age??? Am I crazy???

Don't get me wrong...I'd love a baby...but I just don't think I'm ready...so we're waiting...at LEAST until we're married.

Today

I had originally intended for today to be spent packing...but if you know me, and you know me well...then I don't really need to tell you that I got distracted by piles of fabric, thread, and sewing needles. I made myself a new dress. It's very lolita. I love it.

I watched 6 episodes of Family Guy just now...it was quite wonderful.

You want to know a good website? King.com. Kale told me about it, and I've been playing games on it :D Yay!

I need to buy a new printer. The one I have doesn't work with my computer =( I don't know what happened to it. But I don't have the discs for it anymore either. So I need to buy a little cheap one from WalMart. Why? Because I'd like to print out all of these entries as I go and combine them into a book of sorts...that way...if I write each day...it's sort of like an autobiography...I intend to blog old memories and the like, as well....It should be fun...or maybe I'll call the hp people and see if I can order a new cd for my printer.

You know what I hate?

Finding something good on Craigslist, and not having the money for it. Especially when it's furniture...GAAAAH!

The stress of it all...

Things have been quite busy lately. All day today, my landlord was in and out of my apartment, showing it to strange people with odd hairstyles and who smelled of smoke and cheap whisky. She must be terribly distraught that I'm leaving...

GizGiz of course, made a point of harassing everyone who came through the door...following them...meowing at them and such. My landlord thought it cute, however I felt somewhat bad about her behavior.

I've been looking for furniture to take to the new apartment...call me crazy but I'd rather not have these brown, ripped up monstrosities taking up my living room anymore... so I'll be throwing them out and replacing them with a nicer looking couch.

I also need a new bed. The one I have is from Kale's brother..not that there is anything wrong with that...I just can't help but wonder what sorts of nasty little bacteria are floating around in there..with it being so old and all.

So yes..I need a bed...an entertainment center, couches, and also a smaller bed or futon for the second bedroom in case we have guests with us.

I'm not sure when we'll be getting everything...money is a bit tight at the moment..which is why I've heavily considered picking up a second job. I'll be applying at a few places within the next week or so....I hope it's only temporary, but we'll see. I need health insurance, as well.

Kale's birthday was yesterday, and for it, I purchased a laptop for him. :) He loves it.....

(He just made brownies...time to...well..eat one..lol)

Why....

I was sitting at my computer today...staring at the brightly lit screen after having checked on my tumblr account...which is similar to a blogsite.

I don't do much there anymore....it's mainly a site for posting pictures, these days..and any excessive writings are ignored 90% of the time.

That's not who I am.
That's not who I've been.
I am, and was born to be...a writer.

I'm tired of people typing insignificant dramatics for attention.
I'm tired of "lols" and "brbs" and "omgssss!"
(Although, that's not to say I won't post a few.)

I wanted a site specifically for blogging...and nothing else....perhaps a photo on the rare occasion...but 99.9%....me.....